Now I become the villain, to push you away from me...
To deny myself in all I feel, and become this monster I have to be...
I have to become what I despise,
To keep you away so you won't hear my cries.
Everyone has a life, and choices they have to make,
I've lost you already, I know my mistake.
And so I wander through the night,
Bleeding this heart with no end in sight.
And as I wander, Inside I die,
No way to care...no strength to try...
My eyes they deceive me, I cannot hide this pain,
So I walk alone this path I chose, my tears hidden by the rain.
A monster I am, for it is the only way...
To give you a life, so you can have a new day...
Forget about me, please give me this,
No regrets, for I am nothing to miss.
I am a monster because I have no other choice,
My heart wasn't enough so there's pain in my voice.
You'd be better off if you just left me behind,
Because a memory is all I am worth in my mind....
So in the end I push you away,
Because a monster could never....ask you to stay....
-Ryan Smith